Bad karma for them, or karmic retribution for me:
Karma, also known as the law of cause and effect, is an absolute.
The good deeds, and the harmful actions that we bring unto others will return to us seeking blessings upon us, or retribution against us, as a result of our actions set forth by our intentions.
Life is a cruel teacher, first she gives us the test, and then we learn the lesson. Some will learn this lesson after the first test, for others, myself included, we need to be tested again and again before we learn our lesson.
Zara:
Zara was the first lady that I met in Thailand, and my first test. If you saw Zara on the street, you would not give her a second look. She was a bit of a big girl, but had a good heart, or so I thought.
My Zara lesson lasted for six years. We spent a lot of time together when I was in Bangkok, and spoke often online when I returned to America. I thought that I was going to marry her, and spend the rest of my life with her.
Her favorite restaurant was the Bangkok Seaview. We always made sure that we went there at least once. Zara always ordered more food than we could eat so she had left overs to take home and eat later.
Zara worked hard, and owned a home that she lived in with her two sisters and their families.
She came to my hotel room one day, and was in tears. She was unable to work due to a leg injury for a while, and her sisters were not paying their share of the household expenses.
She was behind on her house payment, and the bank sent her notices that they would take her house if she didn’t get up to date soon. She cried to me, and told me that she didn’t want to lose her house.
She begged me to help her, and told me that she would marry me and I could stay in Thailand on a marriage visa with her if I helped her. So help her I did. I gave her 10,000 baht (about $325) to pay the bank what she owed them.
After I returned to America she asked me to wire her more money to help her out, which I did because I thought we were getting married.
Eventually her communications with me tapered off, until they became non-existent. She finally admitted to me that she found someone else, and loved him, but he had no money. That is why she deceived me to get money from me.
Her intention in the end was to get money from me by deception. May the law of karma even things back out again.
Wii was not quite as expensive of a lesson financially as the Care mistake was, but I know in my heart that she was the one I loved the most.
I thought she loved me. I thought that she would spend the rest of her life with me, but she secretly had other plans.
She tried to get me to buy her a house in her hometown in her name. I could not buy it in my name. I told her we should rent one together first, but she didn’t want that.
It went downhill after that because I didn’t agree to pay cash for a house in her name. I went back to Bangkok after that, and never saw her again.
I kept in touch with her every now and then for a year after it was officially over. Partly because I still loved her, but mostly because I thought it was an opportunity to get my gold jewelry back from her.
This never manifested, even though I told her that I gave it to her because I thought we were getting married. Her response always was that her ex-husband never asked for his gold back after they split up.
Wii ended up moving to Japan, and marrying a man there.
Well played Wii, well played. When Karma comes back to you, I hope you remember me.
I sometimes wonder about the law of karma, and if bad karma will befall them. I can’t help but contemplate one other possibility, perhaps in a past life I wronged them, and took valuables from them.
Now in this lifetime karma is seeking retribution from me, and returning it to them in this one. Why else would they come into my life to deceive me when my intentions were good?
Unless we make peace with our past, we won’t have a future, or a peaceful present.
Some people come into our lives just to teach us how to let go.
I know that there is no point in wondering why things in the past happened the way they did. I must be at peace with not knowing.
I forgive them. I let them go, and embrace nirvana.